A Reflection is Something You Can’t Escape-

I am balanced on the edge 
Between purgatory and limbo
Sad, but still I believe

I know it’s hard to accept 
The fools who think they control you
But look at the reflection 
Of the ones you love
And the ones who love you

I’ve been screaming deep down
Screaming for what its about
Now the screaming has turned to song
And I’ve found my way out

Your eyes, like sunflowers 
In the pale blue sky
Remind me that there is something
Not only nothing before you die

I’ve been staring at these marble walls too long
And not seeing what's there
Now the light I feel inside
Is more than I can bear

To me you are perfection
I miss you and our reflection
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Black Dice Spinning Over a Faint Red Glow-

Vines are growing 
Over what’s not there
The fire’s burning
But I don’t seem to care

Spinning numbers bearing down
Ever falling through black dice
I’ve got to figure them out
And to the top I’ll fly

Cut through these vines
And see what’s behind
How can I see myself
And not see that I’m blind

Stop going to the brain
Trying to fill the hole
I’ll take this to heart
And let it dance with my soul
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Several Nights of Broken Thoughts-

When you get on stage
What will you say?

Please it explain it in a way 
That will make sense for a while

Can you take the colors, 
No matter how bright they become?

Cigarette ashes on the beach
As if you don’t see the ocean

Everything you say sounds like a good idea
I fell in love with the natural tone of your heart

Taking it easy, I’m kicking this cold
I’m tired of forgetting my dreams

Uncertainty has raised me to the next floor
Now that I’m here I don’t where to go

I know I don’t want to get back on that elevator
Unless it’s with you 

I’ve been high and low and all around confused
Now I’m bored, so where to?

God bless all the recorders
Who take down the silly things people do
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Detached-

I beat myself down
With thoughts driven by nothing 

But I do this to myself

I don’t want my mind to freeze over
Trapped in a never-ending hole
You keep me free and breezy
But being alone takes its toll

Write out the thoughts that haunt me
To make sure that I’m still here
Things are not as bad as they seem
Tell that to my tears

Vivid dreams of times to come
Make me long for restless sleep
All day long my mind lives in song
I’m not afraid to weep
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Fucking Math-

Gonna wrap my legs around this problem 
And fuck it ‘till I’m bored
Peak out on perfection
Everything in accord

I can feel the institution’s fingers
Pulling puppet strings from my brain
Order. Order. Order.
Like needles and novocain

Born to do the job 
Efficiency is life
Faster, higher, louder
This is the only strife
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Architecture-

Old brick walls and black iron gates
Deep green vines on the fences, and music after eight

Grass under trees, early autumn leafs
Warming herbs and spices in the air, smoking chimneys

Laughter from the windows
Warm colors with the streets 
People living life
People on their feet

And I’m walking with you down the sidewalk
With our hands together, warm like sighs
In this moment life is perfect
The truth hidden in our eyes
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Something-

We are all products of the times 
We make it so
Flowers under the sun
Everybody knows

Let’s make it interesting for those of us tuned in
Take it all apart
And put it together again

Get lost in the details
Find yourself in art

I’m tired of reminding myself I’m right
Finding new ways to say people do stuff

I love you
And that’s what I know
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Science and Art-

Scientists and artists
We aren’t so different
Explaining the world around us

What is 
What was
And ultimately-
What will be

But for the man in biology
Unwinding DNA
What drives the want to be with her
Even though she’s miles away

And the chemist in his lab
Even pheromones can’t be sure
Why when we are together
Our minds become open doors

And can you use your physics
To please tell me why
Or how the Natural Way of Things
Could possibly pass us by?

But we both know
At the end of the day
In ourselves sleeps the truth
We make our own way
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Sometimes Sadness is Indulgence-

I think back and have no regrets
I’m warmly grateful for the time we’ve had
Life is fun, and life moves on
But from time to time, my heart feels so bad

You gave me everything
You owe me nothing
And now you’re far away

I’m sorry I can’t be there
But you have a home in my heart to stay

When you come back, can we love again?
Don’t answer that right now
Don’t even think or worry about it
It’s just fun to write down

I often get lost in these thoughts
And then find myself like a tree in the ground

Life is so full of music
And I’ve barely begun my sound

I’m glad
And these feelings, they aren’t bad
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Sunset-

Drink the darkness like a gin
Lately these nights have been like storms
Waking up, my chest feels as a healed bone during rain
Wash away these worries, as dirt down the drain

Take the sunrise like a pill
Run in the sunshine, running the mill

Spreading the light
Fighting the blight

Enjoying the company of others

Good things take good time

The sun unravels into brilliance
Will you keep the warmth within?
Or will you succumb to the night
And drink the darkness like a gin 
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Minds Like Playgrounds-

Dreams like rockets that never got off the ground
Now sleeping like burnt trees, pointed towards the sun
And while, if only for a little while, true happiness was found
New growth will come slowly; it’s well worth the run

While still I wander
Through forests, over hills
Sometimes I get so tired
And want only for more to fill

I want a mountain valley I can call my own
I’ll build a house, strong as stone
And when the day’s work is done, I’ll look at the sky
Through both telescopes and naked eyes, and always wonder why

But before I live out in my nowhere
My mind dry like fine wine
I want to give my love to you
I don’t mind paying due time

These cities are game boards
Streets and power lines
And from my room in the rook’s tower
The only crimes are lies

Sometimes I’m such a fucking idealist
My mind is where I play
But I’m not tired when I write
Here I can have my way

I am not so far in the clouds
That I can’t look you in the eye
But from imagination comes happiness
Keep mystery in life
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Dreams of the Ocean-

In a dream, I kept trying to walk out to the ocean
The waves keep pushing me back

Sometimes I just want it to take me

I found myself fascinated by the immenseness, down below the rocks
Then the tide came in and I floated to the top

It took me to you

I’m so tired of swimming 
 
Heaven sent you to me 
But forgot to leave the instructions on how to keep you

Feelings come and feelings go
I’m sorry I couldn’t give you whatever it is you need

I’m so tired of, yet so horribly used to losing good things

My body’s floating lifeless in a cold and misty ravine

Yes I know some days you are happy 
And some days you are not

But for now I simply do not care

The number is busy
I’ll keep trying, even if you’re not
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Come Home from California-

Hey there all you Californians, 
I know it’s so nice to rest under the sun

But don’t you let all that sunshine go to your head 
Hollywood keeps us warm like a bed

Oh come back home to Washington

Where the winter is cold, but the trees stay green
And we don’t elect our governors from the cover of a magazine

Summer is no longer a party if it happens every night
Pretending over and over again, that everything’s all right

How can you say for the environment you stand
When you’re draining lakes for your stakes of land?

I know it stays oh so warm down there
But baby how can you appreciate that if at falling snow you never stare?

Come back home to Washington
Because you know the change is good
Come back home to Washington
Because I’m still in love with you

So live your lives separate from society
But please don’t steal our honey
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Com’on down from up there! -

Getting high, isn’t it fun
Pretending for a little while that you are dumb
And you can think about the problems of the world
Without feeling worried or depressed

So go ahead and suppress your emotions
For in a way you are becoming wise
Apathy with a touch of happiness
With your silly dreams cutting all ties

Oh those drugs they keep us going
We’ll beat the man and his time
In a way they’re like infatuation
Just not quite as sublime
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Bullets from a Gun, or Warm Rays from the Sun? -

I will egg you on
Confuse things, make life longer drawn
Then pass out face down on the lawn

I’ll get up and write a stronger song

You can’t wrestle a dove, but you can admire one
Of all god’s creatures under the sun
With you I have the greatest fun

Now the path back to you is hazy and long
But I will sing and dance my way along
And if I get lost I won’t be undone
Defeat for a good cause can’t be wrong

When you fly home like a graceful swan
I’ll do my best to be the water you float upon

And if these words are bullets from a gun
Don’t worry, with tomorrow comes a brand new dawn
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September’s Closure-

September’s come and gone again
Like a needle in and out of my skin
No question our summer’s gone now
In its wake I hope I found a friend

I hope our roads cross in due time
But the future’s a dangerous place to live
Isn’t it great how things never work out exactly as we plan them?
I hope only warm thoughts from each other we give

If I paint a picture
And use too much blue or red
Please don’t take those words too seriously
Don’t worry your pretty head

This autumn, there may be falling leaves
But let’s look at the changing colors instead
And in winter we can be each other’s cabins
In spring, well that’s awfully far ahead

What shall autumn leave us,
A friendship or a goodbye?
I can’t hold you when you’re far away
But I can be a flower you look at and sigh
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Press Any Key to Continue-

When you’re tired, all you think about is sleep

It just comes down to one question-

Are you content with where you are,
Right Now?

Y/N

Hit Y to continue

Hit N to enter a void
Of total apathy, of looping thoughts

Where dreams become flowers
And people become static
A silent buzz
This book never ends

I’m no longer looking for an ultimate truth

I am not worried about getting lost
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Weekly Broadcast of Love-

With you I don’t need to know
With you I don’t need to see
With you I don’t need proof
With you I’m happy wherever I may be

You are everything I never knew I wanted
A variable that makes everything all right
More than a picture, a song, or a poem
More than shining armor for some knight

I will not be a drain
I will not place any blame 
I will not kill my brain
I will not live in pain

I love you completely, for the wonder you are
Even when I can’t touch your skin
I miss you, but we can’t let that jade us
With every day, there’s a new story to begin
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The Unplaceable-

Polish a world 
Down to a pearl
And shine it under the light

Depressed and obsessed
Depressed and obsessed

I don’t sleep anymore
I just lay awake and wonder

Sometimes it seems in this day and age
No one has time for love
We have enough to keep us entertained
There is no place for love

All these dancing images 
Try to tell me I’m wrong
That I will fall for someone else
And that my road is long

I know that I am young 
I know that I am dumb

I’ve found myself bending towards the sun
I don’t mean more than something to anyone
If I disappeared, would you look for me?
Like bitter cold wind, I’m free

I cannot run and jump
Though the hoops that lay ahead
If I know when I come to the other end
I am as good as dead

So I’ll stick around and be your friend
I’ll hold your hand around the bend

I’m tired of letting lost souls in
My love like a motel
But that’s just me, from which I’ll never be free
When I’m alone this place is hell

I don’t ask for much
I don’t hold onto much
But what I want I’ll fight for
Can’t you see, you are whom I adore?

When I’m not looking at you
These eyes turn a desperate shade of blue

I can say anything to anyone
Words have little meaning
But with you talking is unnecessary
Somewhere deep inside of us love isn’t weaning

Where you’re away, part of me dies
But when we are together, there are no lies
So I’ll have faith that when we’re no longer apart
The fires of our souls will warm each other’s hearts

This hope is all I have this time of night
The hope that love is real
Right now I’m tired of all life’s lies
You are what I feel
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Order and Chaos-

The way of the universe
Faster
Further
Chaos

Nature
The ultimate answer to chaos
Harmony
Balance
Order

Humanity 
The master of these elements

Those who align with the way of the universe
And those who align with nature

Misunderstanding? 
Understanding?

Conservatives?
Liberals?

Men?
Women?

Fighters? 
Lovers?

Will we destroy nature, 
Or spread it?

Will we fade to nothing, 
Or hold on to something?

Are we a disease,
Or are our minds partitions of god?

I believe in humanity
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Sailing-

Sail from island to island
My body floats onto the shore
Cold, dirty, and lost
A cliché, a wet blanket, a bore

A sharp mind makes deep cuts
A wise one knows that will heal
Not with time alone
But with beauty, and all things real

Take solace in the fact 
That we never run out of ways to live
Ask yourself will she be there tomorrow?
No answer? Then love her will all you have to give

Sure it could hurt later
Roads can seem endlessly long
The best part about life is
I might be wrong
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